Quick one two three

1) Sunday. No bridge falls for me. I came much closer. But I landed on my neck. Which is not a big encouragement. I'm kinda bummed about it. But Scott led class and the whole night I had this feeling that my memory was being jogged. As if I was starting to remember what it was that kept me coming after that first painful week of Jujitsu. Something about Sunday night resembled what it used to be like there two years ago.

2) Tuesday morning/afternoon. Have you ever had someone say something witty to you and you laugh but then like 30 minutes later you think of a snappy comeback but the moment, and often the person, is long gone? That's a pain in the butt.

3) Tuesday evening. I want to rip my shoulders off. I've noticed that the people who don't offer to help me put away the heavy boxes from our food order are the ones who know I'm a martial artist. Oh she knows jujitsu? Ok I'm going to watch her struggle. So, I hold my stress about stuff in general in my shoulders and neck, and then add that to a food order and suddenly the tense muscles are contaminating each other and spreading into the lower back and all the way to my wrists. I wasn't taking any falls tonight at jujitsu so Barb had me walking around giving feedback. I felt pretty much useless. I didn't have the patience for much tonight, so I was afraid certain topics might come up if we all went out to the student center to eat, afraid it might ruin my night completely. Nothing much happened that was bad though, so that's something I guess. I'm starting to figure things out a little with jujitsu and its putting me more in a predicament because voicing what's actually going on in me is going to start a war. There's not really a good way to do it without somebody getting hurt. Maybe I'll elaborate sometime soon, if I can find a good way to do it.

Thats all.