Well, this is awkward...

Today's sermon was about forgiveness.  I feel a sort of incongruousness (I tried to write incongruence but spell check doesn't think that is a word, which is ridiculous).  But anyway I feel weird because the tables are turned.  Most of the time you hear about people who want God to forgive them but then struggle to let go of the hard feelings in their heart when it comes to forgiving someone else.  For example, "Forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us."

But I seem to be having no problems forgiving the people who have hurt me.  I am just struggling to ask God to forgive me.  Why?  I don't know.  I know I need God's grace, always, in my life.  But today I am sitting here talking to God and yet I can't seem to bring myself to partake in the communion elements sitting in front of me.

Isn't that what talking to God is about?  Communing with him?  Why can I talk with him, yet not take communion?

On a completely random side thought, isn't "awkward" an awkward word?