Running...

Cyrus is back in town, YAY. Anissa is happy I'm sure. In my opinion they are really cute together. I remember a few months ago when Anissa complained about being a fifth wheel. She said sometimes a third wheel is useful but a fifth wheel is utterly pointless. I was a fifth wheel today, and it wasn't really as bad as she made it sound.

We (the jujitsu crew plus some) went to U-Yee's for Sunday Half Priced Sushi. It was cool and weird at the same time. Weird for me only. I'm sure everyone else had a great time. Cara even came back from France just to eat sushi. Then we went to Fusion Ti and had bubble tea, which was awesome.

Afterwards a bunch of us hung out at The Guys' place, and it was nice, but I was a wallflower, not by anyone's fault, its just that with that many people I withdraw. I can't help it.

The past couple of days I've had this itch to go somewhere. Taylor and Navin are going to Australia. That same week, Anissa and CJ are having a girly trip to Ireland. I'm going to have the house to myself, so everyone, including myself, has been suggesting I go somewhere too. But there's a time and place for travelling alone and that time is not now. I need someone to come with me. I also need money, or a cheap place to go.

After searching online for flights to "anywhere," on "any date" after January 1, I have discovered that online airline websites are not set up for people who are leaving someplace, they are set up for people who are going someplace. Someone once told me that if I'm going to run somewhere, I have to make sure I have something I'm running towards, and not something I'm running from. Its a good idea.

Unfortunately, I don't know how to follow that advice. I want to get away because I don't want to be here, not because I want to be somewhere else. Therefore, anywhere that's not here will do, and that doesn't give me anything to run towards.

Last time mom was down here to visit she mentioned something about how this year will be the first in a long time that neither sibling has been in school. Ever since I graduated from 8th grade, my brother and I have been in separate schools, which means that our winter and spring breaks are never at the same time. Now that I've graduated, my brother's breaks will mean neither of us have school. So to make a long story short, she hinted that it would be cool if we all could go somewhere, somewhere meaning the cruise she took with her mom and sisters once.

I'm hoping maybe this cruise, if it happens, will cure the itch I have to get away. I don't know if it will. I don't know if anything will cure it because what I'm actually trying to get away from is inside me.