unrest

I've been thinking about blogging... I just don't know what to say... or how to verbalize what's going on with me.

Talking with someone on aim, I managed to let them know, and so I've copied and pasted so I can let you all know.

I experienced something today which my anatomy book describes as a sympathetic nervous system reaction. I know this because that's what chapter 4 is all about, and I had a test on chapter 4 today. There were a few things causing it, however, when the causes were removed, the sympathetic nervous system did not shut down, nor did the parasympathetic kick in.

The result is that I suddenly had an irrational fear settle in the pit of my stomach and I had to take precautions to prevent myself from acting upon the fears. The kind person who let me spill my guts on aim described it as "comfortable and uncomfortable in your skin all at the same time."

Its a sudden feeling and it makes your stomach feel tight and you get hungry and also sick to your stomach at the same time so you want to eat and you can't, and you want to jump out of your skin because it feels too normal and familiar.

I would not say that it was a panic attack, however, I also would not say that I was 100% sane today. I did not eat, but in a strange twist of fate, I knew that it was not simply that I did not feel hungry. It was that breakfast had not digested because when one's body is operating under the grip of the sympathetic nervous system, digestion slows or stops as the body prepares to move into the fight-or-flight response. Yes, oddly enough, I had the presence of mind to analyze myself medically, but I did not have the presence of mind to say get over it this is stupid.

In the end though, as my friend said, "you know, you're gonna be ok :-)" either after a relaxing shower, or a good shot of liquor.