Musing about my weight problems

If you don't know, my body has a certain weight it likes to be and that is the weight I am going to stay.  When I went to college, I lost weight, followed by my body's lame equivalent of the Freshman Fifteen.  It was more like the Freshman Five and a Half for me.  I may waver slightly depending on whether I've gained food-weight from Thanksgiving, lost water-weight sweating in the summer, or spent the day puking my brains out with a flu.  But I always bounce back to my normal weight once the food is digested or I have re-hydrated.  I have been the same weight since 2002.

With two exceptions.  In the case of the simple exception, I was taking six classes and doing intense physical exercise 5 nights a week, in addition to walking to all my classes.  Also, this was before I was pretty close friends with Navin, so I was more or less a chicken-sometimes-but-no-other-meats vegetarian.  I pretty much wasted away to nothing, went to some event for my class and found myself daydreaming about steak.  I went to Wendy's that night for as much protein as I could get and managed to keep myself alive another couple of days, when classes ended at Christmas.  I came home for Christmas dinner and was back to my normal weight in no time.

The other exception is more complicated and kind of a secret I kept for a while.  Once, when I had different life goals than I do now, I wanted to lose six pounds, for no other reason than that I liked how the numbers (of my goal weight) sounded in my head.  I set my mind to it, knowing there was no medical reason I should be losing weight, but wanting a different weight none-the-less.  I managed to accomplish my goal, and when I did, a friend who hadn't seen me in a while asked me if I had been sick for very long.  Sigh.  End diet, return to normal.

In the past few weeks, I have been struggling a lot with the cold, and even struggling to keep my body temperature up while I'm indoors.  This is not due to a weight loss, but it seems that as I get older, it is becoming harder for me to cope with the cold than it used to be.  (I sound like an old geezer!)  So, in an effort to both raise my metabolism (warming me up) and add a little insulation (FAT!) I've put myself on a weight-gain, increase-your-caloric-intake diet.  I still intend to eat healthy foods (limit donuts and fried foods as usual) but eat foods that will help me gain weight.

Here's what's happened so far:  Gain two pounds, lose two pounds, gain two pounds, lose two pounds, etc.  Ideally, I will be gaining 5 pounds and losing zero.  Going off the generalized healthy-weight rule of 100 pounds for the first five feet and five pounds for every additional inch in your height, I'd still be 12.5 pounds underweight.  But I need to take baby steps, and 5 pounds is a more reachable goal than 17.5.

However, I've been gathering information about gaining weight (hence, my previous porker post) and I have discovered I have an aversion to carbohydrates.  It is a struggle to force myself to eat them, however, I don't have this problem at breakfast.  At breakfast, I love an egg on toast, hot cereal, granola, waffles, pancakes, a bagel.  Carbs galore!  But lunch and dinner, especially at restaurants, I find myself cringing at the thought of carbs.  Not that I consciously don't like carbs, but when I scan a menu and pick out things that look delicious and things that don't, the things that don't tend to be carbs- sandwiches, pasta dishes, potatoes, rice.  The things that do look good tend to be salads, soups, meats- things with nutrients and animal fats and protiens and water!  (Thats another thing- despite my love of tea helping with my morning fluid intake, I think I am usually dehydrated.)  So the foods I naturally love are not fattening foods, and the foods I do not favor are the carbs I need to add a few extra pounds.

Perhaps people are not "naturally thin" or have a "genetically high metabolism."  Perhaps it just has to do with what foods are pleasing to their palates.  And if that is the case, is that preference genetic?