trying to make this short

Ok so I'm trying to make this short, since I'm getting up early tomorrow, and I'm staying with Anissa, and I'm on her computer. This weekend was amazing. Thanks to Cyrus, Anissa, and Andrew who came over and helped me avoid packing. We made pizza and sundaes and did all sorts of cool stuff. Then on the last night of the Power Team, I went for the 4th time and watched them do their stuff. It was different from the other nights (as they promised), but it was alike enough that I was able to let my mind wander.

I realized that the one guy on the Power Team, Matt, is 23. That's a little over two years older than I. That means, here's a guy who is in full time ministry, doing something he feels God has called him to do, and touching people's lives in ways I could only dream of doing. It makes me kind of feel like a slacker. I mean, I know, I'm making a difference at college, and I know I would wherever I go, but I still feel like I should be stepping towards that one thing God must have created me for, that ultimate purpose. I just don't know what it is yet. Its making me a little impatient. Patience isn't really a strong point for me.

But I gotta cut this short. Today at jujitsu, we did trust falls. Last time I did them, I got dropped in the mud. No effort whatsoever on my catchers' parts. Just drop. So it was definitely a stretch for me. But it was such an amazing feeling to just completely let go. We did more than just your average trust fall. We did lean-off-a-balcony-and-let-go kinds of falls. And I discovered why Cyrus said something along these lines once: "Sometimes with jujitsu, I have to just let go of the thought that I'm gonna die, and do what needs to be done." Cyrus, if you read this, I probably horribly misquoted you. Sorry. But anyway, I discovered why he said that tonight. You totally can't do jujitsu trust if you are thinking about the fear or the height or the people. You have to let go.

And that's going to lead me down memory lane. I've had an object lesson similar to that presented to me in the past, about jumping off cliffs. Tonight... there's not so much regret anymore. I'm glad I jumped then. And I'm glad I let go tonight. Like I've said before, what happens physically often happens spiritually as well. For me anyway. I think for a lot of other people too, but not very many people notice it. Anyhow... bottom line tonight, I'm glad we worked on jujitsu trust. It felt closer somehow.

And now, I'm tired. I should go to bed. Goodnight.