church

When I started this blog, I intended to talk about what God is doing in my life (cause I do believe He has an active role in what we do- some people just don't take notice.) Incidentally, that ended up being on a weekly or twice a week basis, which isn't bad for someone in college, given the number of other things I could be doing. So, I was thinking about what I could write as an update, and I don't really have anything. Frankly, church yesterday was... well, except for one little blip on the church excitement radar, I've never been more bored in my life. Well, no. There's one exception. But no one would believe me if I talked about it. But that's beside the point. The point is, God is cool, and sometimes church is not. The sermon was based on the verse that says that new wine cannot be stored in an old wineskin because the new wine would break the skin and both would be ruined. The message was that God is doing something new and the church needs to change to accomodate it, being that different denominations need to start working together, and people need to stop sticking with "I'm Methodist/Baptist/Presbyterian/Episcopalian/etc, so I'm going to live and die that way." Maybe the rest of the congregation got something out of it, I don't know. I started in a strict Bible Chapel where no one stood to worship and clapping was frowned upon. Then I went to a Baptist church which was more exciting. Then I switched to an Assemblies of God church, which is borderline Pentecostal/Apostolic sort of... even within that church, there have been significant changes all along. So the fact that he was preaching about change makes no sense to me. I hate change, but I know its the only way to live. I've known that for quite some time now. Its not easy- I still resist change when it comes. But to sit through a sermon on it... thats hard. Sometimes I ask myself, why do I keep doing this? Why even try? The answer came last night in a dream. God woke me up to tell me to pray for someone I know. That feeling of obedience, that "whatever you ask, I'll do" mentality. That's what keeps me going. Because as much as I may feel at church that "God's not here, I'm not getting anything out of this," if I know that someone is asking me to do something, then I know that that particular someone exists. If someone exists, and I can communicate with that someone, then I can have a friendship with that someone. If I have a friendship with them, then of course, I want to do the things they ask of me, to the best of my ability. So, that was a sort of roundabout way of saying that God is exciting, and church may or may not be exciting, but having a friendship with God is what keeps me going there.

Not like anyone really asked me why I keep going to church... I just thought I'd ramble again. See if anyone is interested. If you got down to here, you must have been interested. Thanks for reading.