the pain is worth the thunder

I go through phases, musically. I own every Jars of Clay album available so far... to my knowledge. I don't always listen to them, but then I'll go through a phase where I play every album consecutively for a week or two straight. I'm in one of those phases. This is one of the songs that caught my attention.

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Sometimes I cannot forgive
And these days, mercy cuts so deep
If the world was how it should be, maybe I could get some sleep
While I lay, I dream we're better,
Scales were gone and faces light
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Sometimes I can close my eyes,
And all the fear that keeps me silent falls below my heavy breathing,
What makes me so badly bent?
We all have a chance to murder
We all feel the need for wonder
We still want to be reminded that the pain is worth the thunder
Sometimes when I lose my grip, I wonder what to make of heaven
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Hospitals that cannot treat all the wounds that money causes
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