torn

I am thinking about breaking that vow of silence. Not because I need it. But because someone else might need me to open up so that they do not go down the same road I once took. The dilemma is that this person does not communicate well with me but might read my blog if I mentioned it to them. So I'm torn about when and where and if I should open up to this person.

I'm scared for them really. They are very much like me. And I care about them a lot. And they are in a similar postition that I was in some years ago. I can see them getting very very hurt. I think they would take my advice if I gave it. But getting to the point where its ok to give it is difficult. I was there. I hope they do not feel the same pain I felt. I would not wish it on anyone. At the same time, looking back... yep it hurt. But I healed. The human spirit is resilient. Its amazing. Doesn't mean I should stop trying to protect someone from pain though.

In other news, I helped James plant a garden today. It looks really nice. Flower gardens are cool, but there's something special about planting a garden that you know will produce a harvest. It makes me want to do stuff in my backyard.

And there's a restaurant on Milltown Road that is really good. They serve pigeon. I didn't try that though. Ask me about it, I'll tell you the full details. Go there soon because the owners are thinking of selling.

So ok. I semi opened up. No details for you. And only the surface of what I'm feeling. But its something. Feel special.