teary

What I said to a friend:

"He's extremely protective of you, whether he has a right to or not. and i don't know for sure if those are his reasons, but i can understand why he doesn't want to let you get too close to what's going on inside him."

And then God turned it around and said the same thing to me. "You're in the same situation as she is. You know what it feels like to be protected like that, even when you try as hard as you can NOT to protect your heart. There are other people watching out for you, and you need to let go, let them protect you, even if that means they have to pull away from you to do it. They really truly care for you and because of that, they are sacrificing something in order to make sure your heart stays safe. Do them a favor and help them protect you."

And... when I heard that... I allowed myself to feel the pain I've been locking away for a while. And... I'd forgotten how much it hurt. And how healing it is to allow myself to feel it.

And its inspired me somewhat to include it in a project I've been working on.